Funny how life seems to feel good, then suddenly.. its not.. Once in a while you'll realize that what you have now will be taken away from you. The thing about life is that those unexpected things are what makes it wonderful, you just ave to deal with them. Same thing with love, people gave themselves up for somebody hoping that things will be alright, they 'll be trusting their hearts rather than analyzing with their minds. Unfortunately, they break; breaking into tiny pieces that one cannot fix, in due time, the
wounds heal but the scar remains. Then again, all will be back from the beginning. Its as if it is an unending process. It seems to be that
the heart never gets tired of loving..of caring..of believing that someday, somebody will be swiping them off their feet.Sadly, these things happen to a lot of us. I for one am guilty. I admit my mistakes and I stand corrected, but then again I ask myself, if I was the one doing everything for a person,
WHY am I paying the price? Is it a sin to love? Is it wrong to trust? Is it my fault that this person courted me, made me believe all those lies, or plainly masked everything that is real? I have been in many ups and downs in life, and yet up to this moment,
I still can't comprehend that a person like me is suffering for the mistakes of another.If only these people knew that my intentions were pure, that I was helping them, that all I showed them was the truth.
Tears always comes running down my cheeks, tears of despair, of destruction. I've never wanted my life to be as horrible as this. Its a shame.
And yet, no one believes. I am hurt once again.
love FRANCE.❤@6:26 PM
I must have been such an ass to my guy. I inflicted pain..emotionally that is. I was so stupid to act like a kid. I know its not only my fault, but I guess misunderstanding was in the way. I became so self-centered and really hot-tempered. You know what, its all because he
KEPT ME WAITING. WAITING FOR TOO LONG. I just want him to understand that I need his presence sometimes, its not because I want too much attention, NO,
he didn't give me any attention at all. I love him, but it seems wrong loving him. I'm not a pessimist though, I am still hoping he'll change. I can't believe he's taking my Ex's comments to seriously too! He sort of read some of our conversations and from there
he thought that I was a PLAYER!!!! That I was bound to hurt him in the END. I am not like that. I was NEVER like that. I thought I am over this situation when my ex and I broke up.. I was wrong I guess,
you really have to expect for the worse. If only he knew how much I love him, maybe he'll take my words seriously, He doesn't believe me anymore,
is partying worth getting you branded for being a player? I'm such a serious person when it comes to relationships, why can't he understand that? I told him I will never ever be like that,
COZ I KNOW HOW IT FEELS.. it was done to me before, and I will not let others feel that pain as well. If only he knew what kind of person I am, maybe his perspective will change.. but what can I do right? I can only hope for the "IFs" of life..
wish we were like before, when everything was okay. But I guess,
reality intruded from our perfect love story.. wish it will all be better....
If I Were A Boy - Beyonce
love FRANCE.❤@7:15 PM
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kinda new though.. i dunno much on how to
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love FRANCE.❤@12:02 AM
How do you handle situations like this..you love a person, and he loves you as well.. People liked him a lot
BUT not your mom..
she doesn't want to see his face, his shadow and doesn't care about him.
Ur suddenly not allowed to date, not allowed to hangout, not allowed to have a vacation with friends.. and NO MORE NIGHT OUTS.gawd.. i asked her why, but she told me its something u can't explain... how on earth will i get them together?!
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.. doubling efforts. squeezing scheds. "randomization."
love FRANCE.❤@11:19 PM
I was
invited by a modeling agency recently.. gawd.. i didn't know i have the capabilities of being a model.. this ain't a scam.. i have
checked it out DOZENS of times before i replied to them..The thing is i don't know if i should pursue this path..so
i actually turned them down.. (crazy huh?!) anyway, they still want me to be a part of their group so they'll be waiting..
they're offering me a bit of a break.. honestly.. :)♥ that's something good ryt?!
wish my mom and dad would allow me though.. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!
i'm going from schooldom to stardom.. LMAO!! HAHAHA!!wish me luck. and prayers prayers. PLEASE?!
love FRANCE.❤@10:56 PM
